It's starting again *-*

There has been around 5 cases so far when I get into a strict diet for around 5 days.Then sadly I binge,feel guilty,and eat a lot.I was on such a diet last week,but the endless celebrations lately messed everything up.And I had a lot of comfort food for the past 2 day due to that indecent I mentioned in my earlier post T^T

So now I want to start again.Right now.I feel sooo.....motivated I guess.A happy I-Can-Do-Anything sort of a feeling.I won't weight myself until next Sunday(mwa ha ha ha)so I'll see how good is my will-power.I guess at the moment I weight around 58-59kg.Too much.Far too much.I'm starting to develop some sort of a fear of scales to be honest.My dad always asks me to go and weight myself.Then I told him my weight,after a couple of days dieting.He laughed.He calls me fat,so does my mum and one of my friends.I don't like that girl,in fact I despise her at times,but I feel trapped,this friendship is just a mess.She needs me,I don't need her.Can't tell her that,wish I could.She always thinks she's right,always has to be better than you,always has to PRETEND,to boast,to be fake-yeah,as you can see I dislike her.Well screw her,it's summer and I don't want to see her that often.In fact I just tend to avoid her =/

Back to the diet.Easy.Eat practically only fruit and veg.Don't eat after 6.Drink plenty of water.Eat those small vitamin pills that smell and taste nasty,but supposedly are good for you.Thats it.No complications.Healthy and pure.Just lets see how long will I last before cracking up.

Will start to work out a bit,will speed up this process.If I follow this,I'd be in shape before going back to school.Major YaY :D